After a week of feeling a bit deflated about the direction I am going in, I feel re-inspired, hurrah! I had fallen into a familiar groove of questioning whether the Fine Art degree was a total fool's errand. I know I am getting into debt and I'm never quite sure if its going to 'pay off'. This doubt and introspection commonly occurs when you are rudely kicked out of college for these periods they call 'holidays'. Without the everyday structure, you suddenly slip into DOOOOOOOM!, wondering whether you should just go and get a job at the local electricity firm like everybody else. And maybe get a house on a new build estate. And maybe start wearing a tie. Anyway, a quick look today at the various Arts jobs bulletins around has reassured me that getting a Fine Art degree can only be a good thing, and that I still have the work experience accrued before returning to University. And even if I have to start at the bottom of the pile next year when I graduate, I will only be 33, which isn't really that old (is it? is it?), not in this day and age. And actually 33 is pretty early to find yourself where you want to be. I think in general, I need to weather set backs a bit better, and keep in mind my long term goals. Just don't ask for any great detail on what they are. Fuck wearing a tie.
